December 2012
1 post
Chapter 25, page 11.
So, I’ve taken some time off of doing the whole “blogging” [I hate that word] thing to deal with the shit that life’s been throwing at me.
Charlie got fired and moved back to Boston. We spent the last week he was here as friends [which is how we should’ve been in the first place] and he said some things that I’d never expected to hear from him. He told me that...
November 2012
1 post
Chapter 25, page 10.
This is why I don’t put myself out there.
I knew from the beginning that he was going to treat me the exact opposite way of how I wanted to be treated. I knew he was going to end up making my heart hurt in both the physical and metaphorical ways. I didn’t listen to my gut and my brain and the people around me who told me it was a bad idea. I was going to give him the benefit of the...
October 2012
6 posts
suckthistumblr asked: DO I REALLY GET TO ASK ANYTHING
Chapter 25, page 9.
“Love is giving someone the power to hurt you terribly and hoping they don’t.” - Matt Boyd
“Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness.” - Bertrand Russell
“I wish I had a thousand words for love, but all that comes to mind is the way you move against me while you sleep… and there are no words for that.” -...
Chapter 25, page 8.
One thing nobody ever tells you about exposing your true self and state of mind to those around you is the potential for negative reactions and feedback. I understand that sometimes, it’s difficult to see someone you care about [whether in a friendship capacity or further] struggling with things in their personal lives that you can’t help with or even begin to understand. It’s...
Chapter 25, page 7.
It takes a lot for a person to admit that they’re depressed. I think we’re all familiar with the term, “The first step is admitting you have a problem” - but does this go for people with mental health issues, too? Is this guideline applicable for anybody who is struggling with any multitude of problems?
I’ve known for years that something has been off. I’ve...
Chapter 25, page 6.
“If there’s one thing I can’t take It’s the sound a woman makes About five seconds after her heart begins to break Well, that’s one thing I can’t take.” - Jason Isbell, “Codeine”
I’ve always been one to attach times in my life to songs and artists. My senior year of high school and freshman year of college, when I was 17-18 years...
Chapter 25, page 5.
10/11/12. The sky was grey and the ground was damp as I left the house this morning. After waking up at 7:00, my eyes were bleary and my brain hadn’t fully processed the events that were about to unfold this morning. I’d had this morning scheduled since September and it was a constant thought in the back of my mind, but the weight of 9:00 AM didn’t fully hit me until I stood in...
September 2012
1 post
Chapter 25, page 4.
I’ve taken a couple of weeks off the whole working out thing because I just haven’t been feeling up to it. I’ve been making attempts to process a lot of the changes that have happened in my life in recent months and it’s been harder on me than I thought it would. I figure right now is a good time for me to be open with myself and everyone else.
I’m sure anyone...
August 2012
3 posts
Chapter 25, page 3.
Now that I officially have two days worth of workouts on the books, I can say this: Fuck. My. Life. I’m not hurting after the workout like I thought I would be, but I managed to come home today and crash for an hour and a half without even realizing it. Probably more than that, considering I have NO IDEA WHEN I FELL ASLEEP.
I’m a little worried about working out tomorrow because I...
Chapter 25, page 2.
Day one of working out: DONE. Leaving Planet Fitness, my legs were pretty much Jell-O in muscular form. On the plus side, however, I managed to do 13 minutes on the elliptical [three of those were figuring out how to work the damn thing], 15 minutes on the stationary bike, and 7 minutes on the arc trainer.
The arc trainer kicked my ASS. I mean… my ass is literally sore from using that...
Chapter 25, page 1.
I figured I’d get something down really quick before I have to hop in the shower and get ready for work just for posterity’s sake.
I’ve joined a gym and am now starting a path to getting healthy. Of course, I say this as there’s a can of Pillsbury Easy Frost chocolate frosting sitting next to me, but that’s beside the point. The frosting has no bearing on this. Oh,...
